My Thankful Month

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Since being back in the US, I have been through a whirlwind of moods and emotions. Transition is not an easy thing. However, lately, when reflecting on where God has placed me right now, I am thankful. He has placed me with my own family, during a time of learning, change and growth. They have graciously adapted to my presence with them, listened, talked, listened some more, prayed, and rebuked. Being present with my younger two brothers as they are learning and making decisions is exciting and encouraging. I have also rediscovered the fact that the Holland siblings laugh a lot when we are together, and for that I am also thankful. I am thankful that God has given me a job in a place that is familiar, with familiar people and those who pour into me and mentor me. I am thankful for my students who trust me and teach me so much about life and grade. Most of all, I am thankful for Gods grace to me. Every day as I stand before my classes, I am reminded of the enormity of what Christ has done for me, and what He is accomplishing in my own life. And every day I am compelled by His love to say yes to Him so that my students will desire to as well. He has drawn me close when closeness has not been my deepest desire, and has shown me His unconditional love in very personal ways. When I have felt least desireable, He has manifested His desire for relationship with me with utmost clarity. He is there, and He is not silent. He is always at work, even when I cannot see. So because of this awareness of all that He has given to and done for me, I have decided to honor that by journaling every day this month something for which I am thankful. Many people do this around thanksgiving, but I'm not generally one to go with the flow, so I am doing it in March :) I hope to be able to share with you some of my reflections. Please feel free to inquire how I'm doing. I could use the accountability! And if you would like to join me in this month of thankfulness, I'd love to hear from you as well. 

Blessings!

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  1. AnonymousMarch 4, 2014 at 6:10 AM

    I'm in your corner, Lauren! Thankful you have been home so that I might reclaim time missed during years I was away! So very thankful for your testimony and that of your family's!

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